Tonight I just realized that my money is running very thin. Meanwhile I have lots of things coming that needs funding to keep the company running. Meanwhile, lots of my customer have not paid their dues. If I asked most of them postponed and got a lot of excuses for postponement.
But my biggest fear is how can I make my self better each moment. How to make more permanent income and faster rate and reduce fees. I worked by myself, no rich parent to back, no brothers to back, nor investor to put money. I have lots of things to learn and lots of things to do.
Aaaagh what to do... I even felt jealous of people who got rich so fast, can travel all over the world because they are "prepared" by their parents. What makes me jealous is that these people are what you called "unrighteous" people. Yet, they enjoy the money and all the comfort of steady income without doing anything while I have to fight hard to make the daily life for my company. Heck, even my house is still on lease to 3 people and I cannot make payment to one of my money lender.
Then again... I really do not know what to do except present my fears, worries, and sadness to GOD.
Help me GOD.
