I want "THE" home theatre PC!

Oh gosh.. After I did a calculation, it would cost me around US$900 or almost Rp 12 million to build my own personal great PC.... Oh GOD, may I have it? It is sooooo great to have it. I can play all the games that I have been storing for years just waiting to be played...

Here is the specs just in case someone wants to know what kind of PC I dream of... not including surround speakers:

LG 1941 19 Inch Wide

DFI LP DarK 790FXB-M2RSH

X4 Phenom II 920 2.8GHz Multiple 14x BOX

V-GeN DDR2 2 GB PC-6400 x 2 = 4GB

Enlight EN-V-4157 700W

Sapphire HD 4870 1GB GDDR5

Samsung DVDRW

Maxtor 250 GB 7200 RPM, SATA and here is if I purchase from USA... which is impossible for now Gigabyte GA-MA790X-DS4 AMD Phenom II X3 710 Corsair PC8500 - 2 x 2GB Mem = 4GB Enlight EN-V-4157 700W Diamond HD 4870 1GB GDDR5 Samsung DVDRW Western Digital 500GB SATA LG 1941 19 Inch Wide

What is GOD to me? Part 02

When i was a little child, GOD is my father who loves and protects me.
When i was a young man, GOD is my dearest best friend that will always support and sacrifice Himself for me.
Now, as a grown up man, GOD is my KING, I will do anything he wanted me to do.

But since the beginning until the end of eternity, GOD is the entity that I love MORE than anything and anyone I have ever know/love combined all together and multiplied to the power of unlimited. My love to HIM multiplies at the speed of moment.

This is the math Formula:
My love to GOD = L2G
Love to other human = L2H
Love to other things = L2T

L2G > (L2H+L2T)^Eternity

If he did not give me a heart bigger than the space. I would have blown up due to insufficient space to hold my feelings of love towards HIM. Yet... I shamefully admit. I sinned. I am truly sorry LORD. Please forgive my stupidity.

I love you GOD.

What is GOD to me? Part 01

This passage really express my feelings towards GOD.

Jeremiah 15:16
Your words were found, and I ate them, and Your words become to me a JOY and the DELIGHT OF MY HEART; for i am called by Your Name.

I love you GOD.

Fear!

Oh why do I fear so much. I tried not to fear, but I cannot help it. My fear is fear of failing. Of not having enough money, of my works that if I left it just for 1 week for vacation, it will go ashtray and I have to close my company. Fear of how I am going to think about how to make money to pay for my house's installment fee.

Oh GOD, help me. I need a total vacation where I can really have some peace of mind. Journey to the top is really one windy and lonely road in the middle of scorching darkness. No one understand you or even know about you.

Sometimes I feel like I want to throw everything away after having headache because of complaining customers, bad suppliers, annoying child, fear of all the above, wife, and many more. I work even during holiday. I feel like my life is no longer mine. I do not even have time to relax. That is why I developed insomnia. The fear of sleeping because I feel that I might miss something important if I go to sleep.

That is why I pray to GOD that he would just give me a heavy sleepy feeling every night. So heavy that I will not be awaken even if an earthquake happens. So heavy that I just fell asleep at any place just like a person losing his consciousness. Ignorance is really a bliss!

Forgive me for spewing my guts like this Lord. I wish at least some people would understand my situation even just a tiny bit so that they will at least be patient with me when I cannot perform as fast as they would expect me to.

Get that girl out of your mind and into your arms...

I was just reading a blog of someone who enjoys spending time at home alone in the age that is probably 30 something with an idol photo book and his dream girl in his mind. He is an otaku... meaning someone who is addicted to anime or Japanese model / idols/ animation... etc.

I used to be like him when I was teenage. How I looked at the pictures of some of my idol girls. I often feel when can I get this kind of girl? Always smiling and appears beautifully, well groomed, always care for you.. and so on and so on.

Well, I am not trying to brag or anything. But I actually got one. Yes, I got my self a very beautiful girl that looks like the idol in the the magazine. She even looks like an actress. A girl to look after me and she is very beautiful.

Well... not all is the same as idol girls. In physical appearance, she is perfect, but in personality, she is unique. Not that I am being ungrateful. I am just saying that many man should just wake up from their dreams and start to see the reality that women are not idols in pictures or movies.

Women are human too. They have feelings, sometimes they want to become lazy and don't care about appearance, sometimes they can be very cranky. Even idols do that. But men usually lost in their dreams of what a perfect woman should be.... more like a robot. Never say no, always caring, always do all the works, always looks great every second, bla bla bla.

What we men must understand is that all the uniqueness in women are the ones that makes them beautiful. That is why GOD never made 2 men or women who is exactly the same. It would be boring if all women are obedient, always beautiful, never angry, looks the same, have the same cat-walk figure... oh my GOD!!!

Thank GOD that HE gave me this woman as my wife. It feels as if half of my heart is in her. I am glad that when I go home from work I have a woman I can snuggle to. She is the warmth in my heart. If I away on a duty outside city or country, I feel as if half of my body is left behind.

One secret I tell you... one of the things that makes me feel so lucky to have a woman like my wife is that... in a dead lock argument with her... I am always right :) (if you do not understand this... well go figure it out). Bwahahahahahahahaha.....

Aaaaggghhh new blog. Why???

This is my new blog from the old one. After writing 3 thoughts I got a problem with the wife because I wrote about my past experience with my ex-girlfriend. Oh gosh... God knows that my current wife is number one in my heart. Although she is number .... n .... in my experience.

Well God, you know my heart. Please tell her that she is number one queen of my heart. Oh well, but we settle our problem with a WIN - WIN solution :) ... secret though ....